May 22, 1971

So then, what have you brought?

Well, and you, what do YOU say?

Me, I don't say anything.... I mean if the Lord wants success for us, it can be BREATHTAKING. There is the possibility of a breathtaking success -- not in the sky: here. The only thing is to know whether the time for success has come.

(long silence)

It seems that things are much better in Auroville. S. is particularly interested and goes there, and she sent me word that there is a great progress in the atmosphere.

Well, good.

I tell you, everywhere there's a possibility for an ... extraordinary success. Has the moment come? I don't know.... Personally, I make myself like this (tiny gesture), physically very small, and I let ...

(gesture open to the Lord).

I would like.... You see, the Will comes, but then all the formations come in and decay its execution -- I would like ... I would like my atmosphere to be ... a limpid transmitter, utterly limpid. I don't even try to know what it is, because that too introduces an ordinary human element. A limpid, limpid transmitter: let it come like this (gesture of direct descent), pure, in all its purity -- even if it is overwhelming.

At bottom we don't know why one thing is like this, another thing is like that, and our vision is ... even if our vision is worldwide, it is so small, so small -- so exclusive: we want this, we do not want that. First and FOREMOST to be an instrument: we must be LIMPID, limpid, things must pass through undistorted and unobstructed.

Actually, that's how I spend all my time, trying to be like that.

But is that possibility of victory which you feel something

 recent?

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Yes.

It's recent; because apparently circumstances are obviously not so good -- apparently.

Oh, you know.... All circumstances seemed to be poised for a disaster.

Yes.

Just a few days ago, the disaster seemed to be closing in. And so, at that moment, it was as if my whole being ... what's the word? (Mother clenches her fists), were, yes, you can call it an aspiration for the true Victory -- not the one sought by this side or that side or ... -- the true Victory. ALL the difficulties seemed to have been as though a light shone: the possibility of Victory. It's still ... not miraculous, but the intervention ... it's the intervention of the Supreme Wisdom -- will it concretize? We'll see. It seems, it seems to be coming like this (gesture at a certain height, her two palms turned downward), as a possibility.

Yes, it's recent, quite recent. I can't say because it didn't come abruptly, but it's a matter of days.

Yes, because for some time, I was feeling a great pessimism.

That's a bad attitude.

Well, I didn't really have that attitude, but it's like an atmos

phere of pessimism that came.

That's always there.... It's everything that does not want the Divine which creates the atmosphere deliberately to discourage those who want the Divine. You must ... you mustn't pay any attention. It's the device of the devil. Pessimism is the devil's tool, for he feels his own situation is ... (shaky gesture). You know, if the possibility I see materializes, it will really be a decisive Victory over the adverse forces -- naturally they fight back as best as they can. But that's always the devil, as soon as you see even the tail of pessimism, it's the devil. That's his great tool.

(long silence)

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(Satprem gets ready to leave,
Sujata comes near Mother)

Mon petit....

(Sujata:) Mother, do you remember the other day, when I saw

 those two eyes appearing on your forehead [[These past few days, Sujata had seen two eyes appear on Mother's forehead (a very high forehead), rather far above her physical eyes. She could clearly distinguish the eyelids and the half-closed eyes as if they were about to open. ]] (you remember, I

 told you), was that the Wisdom appearing?

Perhaps?... Perhaps.... Perhaps is was the Victory.... If it was the Victory, that's good.

Do you still see them?

No, Mother.

We'll see.

(Mother caresses Sujata's cheeks)

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