Dependence on the Mother

"How far have I come, how far yet have I to go?"—such questions are not of much avail. With Mother as Pilot, swim up-current. She will take you to your destined port.

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The Mother alone is your destination. She contains every- thing in herself. To have her is to have everything. If you live in her Consciousness, there will be an automatic flowering of every other thing.

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The Mother's attitude never changes. It remains always the same. When a sadhak sees her according to his mental ;¦¦ ideas, he finds her attitude changed. But this is not true.

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If there is ruin, how can there be transformation? Rather the old nature of the vital and of the body should be ruined and not the vital and the body.

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It is true that the Mother is in everybody and we should have a relationship with her there. But that is no human or personal relationship; it is oneness with her vast unity.

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  On one side is the increase of peace and the true consciousness; on the other, surrender. This alone is the real way.

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It is a wrong desire to destroy the vital—if the vital is destroyed, the body cannot live; if the body does not live, sadhana cannot be done.

Perhaps, you have pulled down so much power that the body cannot bear it. Everything will become all right if you can remain a little quiet.

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You are not without the Mother Divine. The Mother is really with you. It is to bring down the higher light and the higher consciousness that a sadhak goes down to hell. With this belief go on with a steady heart. The light and consciousness are sure to descend.

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The Mother is already within you. The work of Shakti is going on behind the screen of the physical nature. Finally

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with the Light of the Mother the screen will become transparent.

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One has to practise spirituality silently, calmly, fearlessly with the constant belief that the victory of the Mother is sure

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Who will go away? Those who have no sincerity, no faith and trust in the Mother; those who look upon their own imagination as something greater than the will of the Mother, they might go away. But he who seeks the Truth, who has faith and confidence, who wants the Mother, has nothing to be afraid of; even if there are a thousand difficulties, he will surmount them; if he has numerous defects in his nature, he will rectify them; even if he falls, he will rise again and finally one day he will reach the goal of his sadhana.

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This is not the right attitude, your sadhana has not been ruined; the Mother has not abandoned you; she has neither moved away from you nor is she displeased with you—these are vital imaginations and should not be given any place. Keep a simple and quiet confidence in the Mother. Without being afraid of the difficulties call in the Mother's Force. All that you have received is inside; there will be even further progress.

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Remain quiet and conscious. Call the Mother, the good condition will return. To make full surrender takes time. Surrender all that you find still remaining over. Only thus, by repeating it constantly, the surrender becomes complete.

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Be always calm and let the higher Consciousness of the Mother descend into you—this alone will gradually trans- form your external consciousness.

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Advance quietly by surrendering more and more. What- ever transformation of the old is required will gradually be effected.

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There is no sadhak, in spite of his being a child of the Divine, who has not numerous little defects in his nature. As soon as one becomes aware of them, they have to be rejected; one has to aspire more ardently for the Mother's Force so that these little defects of the nature may slowly be eradicated; but faith, surrender and reliance on the Mother must always remain intact. To get rid of these defects entirely is a matter of time; one must not be disturbed because they are there.

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This should not upset you. In the path of yoga such a condition invariably comes—when it is time to descend into the physical consciousness and the subconscient, and it may last long. But the Mother is there behind the veil and she will reveal herself later on; this lower kingdom will be transformed into the kingdom of light that is above—keep this strong faith and, by constantly surrendering all, advance towards the end of this stage that is full of difficulties.

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Relation with the outer world must be maintained but 'all that must remain on the outer surface. You should live within, close to the Mother and watch everything from there—this is what is wanted. It is the first step of the Karmayoga. Then from within conduct all external work with the help of the Mother's force. This is the second step. If you can do this, then you will not have any further trouble.

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First of all, you must find the Mother within. Later on, when the external being comes under, full control, you will constantly feel her even there.

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This you should always remember, that if you go forward with full trust in the Mother, then whatever may be the circumstances and the difficulties, however long a time may be necessary, you will most certainly reach your goal—no

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obstacle, delay or adverse condition can mar the ultimate success.

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In this sadhana just as you have to get rid of restlessness, so also sorrow must be given no place. You must rely on the Mother and advance with a steady heart and a quiet and cheerful mind. If you have full trust in the Mother, then where is the place for sorrow? The Mother is not far away but constantly near you. You must maintain this faith and knowledge.

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It is not right to assume from her outer appearance during the Pranam or Darshan that the Mother is pleased or displeased. People are constantly making this error that the Mother is displeased, the Mother is severe, the Mother does not want me, she is keeping me away from her, etc. and so many other false notions; then yielding to despair they create their own difficulties on the way. Instead of doing all this, maintain an unshakable trust in the love and help of the Mother within you and go forward on the path of sadhana with a quiet and cheerful mind. Those who do that are safe. When the difficulties come and the ego rises up, they are not touched; they say, "The Mother is there, whatever she does is all right; though I may not see her for the time being, still she is with me, all around me; I have nothing to fear." This is what you should do. One has to maintain this trust and continue to do the sadhana.

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The condition must be such that the consciousness within remains united with the Mother, her force works in the being and the external consciousness acts as an instrument of that force. But this condition does not come fully or easily. Slowly, and by constant sadhana it becomes complete.

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