Mother, now and then I feel this new vibration coming down into me, bringing with it vigour, Force, joy, and I don't know what it is so beautiful. Here you are, my Mother.

I am always with you inwardly.

Blessings.

19 May 1971

I am always present, near you, in you, and my blessings come with me.

Be sure that I am always present among you to guide and help you in your work and your sadhana.

For the moment the important thing is to cultivate this widening and deepening of the consciousness which enables you to feel my constant presence with you, to feel it in a real and concrete way which will bring you an immutable peace.

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Keep always this awareness of my constant loving presence and all will be all right.

Have confidence, I am near you.

With all my tender love.

Today at Pranam, for the first time I could enter X's heart and an emanation of mine settled there.

14 June 1932

I am happy with this awakening in your consciousness. You should allow it to develop more and more so that the light can penetrate everywhere, even into the darkest corners.

My help and protection are always with you.

17 June 1935

My help is always with you to help you in your progress and your work.

The difficulties you cannot overcome today will be overcome tomorrow or later on.

I always look upward. Beauty, Peace, Light are there, they are ready to come down. So, always aspire and look up, in order to manifest them upon this earth.

Do not look down at the ugly things of the world. Look always upward with me, whenever you feel sad.

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Be very quiet and you will feel my help.

Child, you complain that you see me only as a friend… but what could be better than to have a friend who knows, who acts, who loves?

21 September 1945

Surely, my child, I have no intention of leaving you and you need not worry; one thing you must know and never forget: all that is true and sincere will always be kept. Only what is false and insincere will disappear.

In the measure in which your need for me is sincere and genuine, it will be fulfilled.

5 October 1955

My dear boy,

All this talk of leaving you is mere nonsense.

What you are or are not I know better than you do; and I know the treasures that are hidden behind what you call your lower vital.

The only thing true you say is that love is unselfish and unconditioned. Such is the love of Sri Aurobindo and myself for you.

That is why we shall never listen to all your nonsense and will love you surely.

Come to me without fear. I will not scold and not look with “round eyes”.

My very dear boy,

I knew something of this although you had not spoken, and

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the only thing I regretted is that you did not love and trust your Mummy enough to tell her frankly. How could you think that this could change my love for you?

Now nothing stands in the way between us, between X and his Mummy, and if my love for you could be greater, it would be so now that you have shown full confidence in me.

Remember what Sri Aurobindo has written to you. When these moods come, why do you run away from Mother? Come to her, on the contrary, and she will cure you easily. This is the substance of what he has said.

My dearest little child,

What a sad thing that my lovely is not well! I hope it is getting better now; but keep quiet and do not worry either about work or anything ― you must not move until it is all gone... If you feel quite well this afternoon, come and I will be very happy.

With all my love and affection I am near you holding you in my arms and praying that you will be quite all right very, very soon.

My love remains with you with all its intensity. And in the intensity of this love, I have prayed and prayed to our Lord, asking Him to pour His Grace upon you and to make you conscious of the Divine Light and Soul in you, to give you the supreme realisation of His Presence.

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Let all the clouds disperse, all the attachments disappear, all the obstacles vanish, so that you can enjoy fully the peace and the joy of being here, so close to me, in the Divine's abode.

I am writing to tell you that surely you should be able to feel my presence every day. I am with you so concretely, I see you so clearly, we speak together, together we contemplate the harmony of a beautiful park; I explain to you and show you how to keep within oneself always this great peace which makes you live in eternity, beyond all human miseries, in the Presence (Truth) of the Lord.

I received your letter. My deepest sympathy is with you.

We must pray for the day when the Light of the Truth will reappear in the consciousness. Meanwhile my love and blessings are always with you.

My dear little child,

My love remains with you. I am constantly praying to our Lord that He should make you conscious of His Presence in you and thus one with me.

Always with you in a growing light and peace.

Forward, always forward in love and joy and a peace rising ever higher.

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I remember and love all my children equally even if they never write to me ― and all sincere prayers are always answered even if I do not write myself. So have no pain and be cheerful.

21 November 1962

I think that always, at every moment, someone or other is calling You and You answer. Doesn't this disturb Your sleep or Your rest?

Day and night hundreds of calls are coming ― but the consciousness is always alert and it answers.

One is limited by time and space only materially.

3 January 1968

X is always present in our thoughts and living in our hearts.

For the thought the world is small, for the heart there is no distance.

Days when it is cold and you would like to wrap Mother's love around your shoulders.

Please think of me now and then.

That much only! Surely I do think of you more often!!

Love and blessings.

1970

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“I AM WITH YOU”

“I am with you.” What does it mean exactly?

When we pray or struggle with a problem within ourselves, are we really heard, always, in spite of our clumsiness and imperfection, in spite even of our bad will and our error? And who hears? You who are with us?

And is it you in your supreme consciousness, an impersonal divine force, the force of Yoga, or you, Mother in a body, with your physical consciousness? A personal presence that really knows each thought and each act and not some anonymous force? Can you tell us how, in what way you are present with us?

Sri Aurobindo and you, it is said, form one and the same consciousness, but is there a personal presence of Sri Aurobindo and your personal presence, two things distinct, each playing its own particular role?

I am with you because I am you or you are me.

I am with you, that signifies a world of things, because I am with you on all levels, on all planes, from the supreme consciousness down to my most physical consciousness. Here, in Pondicherry, you cannot breathe without breathing my consciousness. It saturates the atmosphere almost materially, in the subtle physical, and extends to the Lake, ten kilometres from here. Farther, my consciousness can be felt in the material vital, then on the mental plane and the other higher planes, everywhere. When I came here for the first time, I felt the atmosphere of Sri Aurobindo, felt it materially at a distance of ten miles, ten nautical miles, not kilometres. It was very sudden, very concrete, an atmosphere pure, luminous, light, light that lifts you up.

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It is now long since Sri Aurobindo has put up everywhere in the Ashram this reminder that you all know: “Always behave as if the Mother was looking at you, because she is, indeed, always present.”

This is not a mere phrase, not simply words, it is a fact. I am with you in a very concrete manner and they who have a subtle vision can see me.

In a general way my Force is there constantly at work, constantly shifting the psychological elements of your being to put them in new relations and defining to yourself the different facets of your nature so that you may see what should be changed, developed, rejected.

But that apart, there is a special personal tie between you and me, between all who have turned to the teaching of Sri Aurobindo and myself, ― and, it is well understood, distance does not count here, you may be in France, you may be at the other end of the world or in Pondicherry, this tie is always true and living. And each time there comes a call, each time there is a need for me to know so that I may send out a force, an inspiration, a protection or any other thing, a sort of message comes to me all of a sudden and I do the needful. These communications reach me evidently at any moment, and you must have seen me more than once stop suddenly in the middle of a sentence or work; it is because something comes to me, a communication and I concentrate.

With those whom I have accepted as disciples, to whom I have said Yes, there is more than a tie, there is an emanation of me. This emanation warns me whenever it is necessary and tells me what is happening. Indeed I receive intimations constantly, but not all are recorded in my active memory, I would be flooded; the physical consciousness acts like a filter. Things are recorded on a subtle plane, they are there in a latent state, something like a piece of music that is recorded without being played, and when I need to know with my physical consciousness, I make contact with this subtle physical plane and the disc

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begins to turn. Then I see how things are, their development in time, the actual result.

And if for some reason you write to me asking for my help and I answer “I am with you”, it means that the communication with you becomes active, you come into my active consciousness for a time, for the time necessary.

And this tie between you and me is never cut. There are people who have long ago left the Ashram, in a state of revolt, and yet I keep myself informed of them, I attend to them. You are never abandoned.

In truth, I hold myself responsible for everyone, even for those whom I have met only for one second in my life.

Now remember one thing. Sri Aurobindo and myself are one and the same consciousness, one and the same person. Only, when this force or this presence, which is the same, passes through your individual consciousness, it puts on a form, an appearance which differs according to your temperament, your aspiration, your need, the particular turn of your being. Your individual consciousness is like a filter, a pointer, if I may say so; it makes a choice and fixes one possibility out of the infinity of divine possibilities. In reality, the Divine gives to each individual exactly what he expects of Him. If you believe that the Divine is far away and cruel, He will be far away and cruel, because it will be necessary for your ultimate good that you feel the wrath of God; He will be Kali for the worshippers of Kali and Beatitude for the Bhakta. And He will be the All-knowledge of the seeker of Knowledge, the transcendent Impersonal of the illusionist; He will be atheist with the atheist and the love of the lover. He will be brotherly and close, a friend always faithful, always ready to succour, for those who feel Him as the inner guide of each movement, at every moment. And if you believe that He can wipe away everything, He will wipe away all your faults, all your errors, tirelessly, and at every moment you can feel His infinite Grace. The Divine is indeed what you expect of Him in your deepest aspiration.

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And when you enter into this consciousness where you see all things in a single look, the infinite multitude of relations between the Divine and men, you see how wonderful all that is, in all details. You can look at the history of mankind and see how much the Divine has evolved according to what men have understood, desired, hoped, dreamed and how He was materialist with the materialist and how He grows every day and becomes nearer, more luminous according as human consciousness widens itself. Each one is free to choose. The perfection of this endless variety of relations of man with God throughout the history of the world is an ineffable marvel. And all that together is only one second of the total manifestation of the Divine.

The Divine is with you according to your aspiration. Naturally that does not mean that He bends to the caprices of your outer nature, ― I speak here of the truth of your being. And yet, sometimes he does fashion himself according to your outer aspirations, and if, like the devotees, you live alternately in separation and union, ecstasy and despair, the Divine also will separate from you and unite with you, according as you believe. The attitude is thus very important, even the outer attitude. People do not know how important is faith, how faith is miracle, creator of miracles. If you expect at every moment to be lifted up and pulled towards the Divine, He will come to lift you and He will be there, quite close, closer, ever closer.

“TO BE NEAR ME”

In order to be always near me really and effectively you must become more and more sincere, open and frank towards me. Cast away all dissimulation and decide to do nothing that you could not tell me immediately.

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Do only what you could do before me without feeling embarrassed, say only what you could repeat to me without difficulty.

Be very sincere and straightforward, harbour nothing within yourself which you cannot show me without fear, do nothing which you would be ashamed of before me.

Try to be spontaneous and simple like a child in your relations with me ― it will save you from many difficulties.

Be simple,

Be happy,

Remain quiet,

Do your work as well as you can,

Keep yourself always open towards me ―

This is all that is asked from you.

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