November 8, 1972
For a moment – just a few seconds – I had the supramental consciousness. It was so marvelous, mon petit! … I understood that if we were to taste that now, we would no longer want to exist differently. We are in the process of … (gesture of kneading dough) of changing laboriously. And the change, the process of
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change seems…. Yet you can grasp it in a kind of indifference (I don’t know how to express it). But it doesn’t last long. As a rule it’s … laborious. But that consciousness is so marvelous, you know! It’s most interesting because there’s a sort of EXTREME activity within complete peace. But it lasted only a few seconds.
(silence
hands turned upwards)
And you?
Is it a total consciousness?
It’s fabulous! Like a harmonization of all opposites. Yes, a total, fantastic activity together with … perfect peace. But these are mere words.
(silence)
Is this consciousness material?
The action is a material one – but not done in the same way, of course.
(silence)
What helps make the contact with "that"? … What exactly
makes you go across there or be there?
I don’t know because I am constantly – my WHOLE consciousness, including that of the body, is always turned to the … (gesture of offering) to what it feels as the Divine. And without "trying," you follow?
Yes. Yes.
(Mother plunges in)
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