August 14, 1971
(It is the eve of August 15. Mother sees Satprem having been
unable to finish seeing her usual entourage.)
Is there something you’d like to say?
No, nothing at all!
I am all right — even quite all right.
I am quite all right. The body is beginning to … I could say to have the true attitude. I mean it increasingly feels in a concrete manner and, I could say, ACUTE manner that there is only ONE way to exist — in the Divine Consciousness. All the rest seems … seems to it dangerous, unknown.
To remain as though constantly bathed in the Divine Consciousness seems to the body the only way to exist. There is no other. That’s the attitude of the body. It feels … you see, it’s more than an impression, it’s…. I don’t know, almost an acute sensation, that one can exist only in the Divine and be constantly concentrated upon the Divine. And that such is the transition to go towards something that is still … I wouldn’t say a dream, but a wonder. THAT….
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It likes less and less to speak.
Yes!
All words seem childish to it.
(silence)
It has no need to know anything: it has a need of being entirely molded, set in motion and used in every way [by the Divine], and it has but one dream — to forget that it exists — to become spontaneously the expression … (Mother has a blissful smile) of something … of something it calls the Divine, which is the only true thing.
(silence)
And what is Sri Aurobindo doing? … Do you see him?
I don’t “see” him — I feel his presence.
Recently I read some of his letters about me…. How? It’s really a miracle that I survived [his passing]…. My whole … [being collapsed]. He was such a marvelous protection and support!
The inner being wasn’t affected because that remained the way it was — the closeness, the intimacy remained the same — but the physical being…. It’s a miracle it survived.
Several days ago I saw Sri Aurobindo and he was busy with money — he was receiving money, he was even receiving things in gold. [[Perhaps coincidentally, two days later, on August 16, the dollar was "devalued" and the Bretton-Woods accords were broken. ]]
(Mother laughs)
That surprised me.
Why?
I don’t know, I didn’t imagine him having that kind of activity.
That wasn’t necessary because I was there. [[Mother means that while Sri Aurobindo was alive, it was not necessary for him to be concerned with money because Mother was there. ]] But I know he was interested, in the sense that he thought money should come very freely and abundantly. He always thought that people should give
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all they had — for him that was an absolute rule. One shouldn’t have to ask — they should spontaneously give all they had.
(silence
Mother takes Satprem’s hands)
Next Wednesday we’ll be quieter.
The body has only one ambition, I could say, that only the Divine exist and that it be like … like something the Divine uses and is absolutely malleable and expressive. That’s all. Until such time when it will exist only in the Divine.
There’s a kind of prescience of a state in which there is only the Divine Consciousness. That…. (Mother intently closes her eyes with an ecstatic smile.)
Only the Divine Consciousness.
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