November 23, 1965
Regarding the message Mother will give
for the November 24 darshan:
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“It is certainly a mistake to bring down the light by force – to pull it down. The Supramental cannot be taken by storm. When the time is ready it will open of itself – but first there is a great deal to be done and that must be done patiently and without haste.”
Sri Aurobindo
That’s good for sensible people. They will say, “There, he doesn’t promise any miracles.”
Why? Are there lots of people who tend to “pull”?
People are in a hurry, they want to see results right away.
So then, they think they are pulling the Supramental down – and they pull some little vital entity that leads them on and afterwards plays nasty tricks on them. That’s what happens most often, ninety-nine times out of a hundred.
A little individuality, a vital entity that puts on a big show and creates dramatic effects, lighting effects; so the poor devil who has pulled is bedazzled, he says, “Here’s the Supramental!” and he falls into a hole.
It’s only when you have touched, seen somehow or other, and had a contact with the true Light that you can discern the Vital, and you realize that it’s absolutely like lighting effects on a theater stage: theatrical effects, an artificial light. But otherwise people are bedazzled – it’s dazzling, it’s “magnificent,” and so they are misled. It’s only when you have SEEN and had a contact with the Truth … “Ah!” then it makes you smile.
It’s showing off, but you have to know the truth in order to discern the showing off.
Basically, it’s the same for everything. The Vital is a sort of super-theater giving performances – very alluring, dazzling, deceptive performances – and it’s only when you know the True Thing that immediately, instinctively, without reasoning, you discern and say, “No, I don’t want that.”
And for everything, you know. The one point in human life where it has assumed cardinal importance is love. Vital passions and attractions have almost in every case taken the place of the true feeling, which is tranquil, while that makes you bubble with excitement, it gives you the feeling of something "living"…. It’s very deceptive. And you can know this, feel it, perceive it clearly
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only when you know the True Thing; if you have touched true love through the psychic and through divine union, then it [vital love] appears hollow, thin, empty: an appearance and a drama – more often a tragedy than a comedy.
All that you can say about it, all that you can explain about it is perfectly useless, because the one who has been caught will instantly say, “Oh, it’s not like with others” – what happens to you is never like what happens to others (!) What’s needed is the “Thing,” the true experience … then the whole Vital is seen as a masquerade – not an alluring one.
And when people pull down, oh, it’s much more than ninety-nine times out of a hundred – it’s one case in a million in which the True Thing happens to be pulled down; which proves the person was ready. Otherwise, what’s pulled down is always the Vital: the appearance, the dramatic representation of the Thing, not the Thing itself.
Pulling down is always an egoistic movement. It’s a distortion of aspiration. True aspiration involves a giving – a self-giving – while pulling down is wanting for oneself. Even if you have in your thought a vaster aspiration – the earth, the universe – it makes no difference, those are mental activities.
(long silence)
When things are put mentally, all those who have tried to explain things mentally have made an opposition, and so people imagine that one is the very opposite of the other [the True Thing and its distortion]; in that case it would be so easy to discern. But that’s not at all how it is! … I am now studying the way in which Matter, the body, can be in constant harmony with the divine Presence. And it’s so interesting: it’s not at all an opposition, it’s a tiny little microscopic distortion. For instance, there is this frequent experience (and generally people don’t know why it is so – now I know): on some days or at certain times all the gestures you make are harmonious, all the things you touch seem to respond harmoniously to the will that touches them, everything works out (I am talking about the very small things of life – of everyday life), each thing seems to be in its place or to find its place naturally: if you fold a paper, it folds itself as though spontaneously, as it should; if you look for something, you seem to spontaneously find the thing you need; you never knock against anything, never upset anything – everything seems harmonious. And then, without any appreciable
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difference in the overall state of consciousness, at other times, it’s the exact opposite: if you want to fold a paper, you fold it the wrong way; if you want to touch some object, you drop it – everything seems disharmonized or off balance or bad-willed. You are yourself more or less in the same state. But now, with the present keen and fine observation, I see that in one case, there is a sort of inner silence in the cells, a PROFOUND quietude, which doesn’t prevent movement, even rapid movement, but the movement seems to be founded on an eternal vibration; and in the other case, there is that inner precipitation (gesture of tremor), that inner vibration, that inner restlessness, that haste to go from one moment to the next, that constant hurry (why? There’s no knowing why), always, always hurrying and scurrying; and everything you do is wrong. And in the other case, with that inner serenity and peace, everything is done harmoniously, and MUCH FASTER in material time: there is no time lost.
And that’s why it’s so difficult to know how one should be. Because in thought you can be in the same constant state, even in aspiration you can be in the same constant state, in the general goodwill, even in surrender to the Divine, it all can be the same thing, in the same state – it’s in here (Mother touches her body), and this makes the whole difference. I can very well conceive that there may be people in whom this opposition persists in the mind and the vital, but there it’s so obvious…. But I am talking of something absolutely material. Some people say and think, “How come? I have such goodwill, such a desire to do the right thing, and then nothing works, everything jars – why? I am so good (!) and yet things don’t respond.” Or those who say, “Oh, I have made my surrender, I have such goodwill, I have an aspiration, I want nothing but the Truth and the Good, and yet I am ill all the time – why am I ill?” And naturally, one small step more, and you begin to doubt the Justice that rules the world, and so on. Then you fall into a hole…. But that’s not it, that’s not what I mean. It’s much simpler and much more difficult at the same time, because it isn’t blatant, it isn’t evident, it’s not an opposition from which you can choose, it’s … truly, totally and integrally leaving the entire responsibility to the Lord.
Of all things, this is the most difficult for man – it’s far easier for the plant and even for the animal, far easier. But for man it’s very difficult. Because there was a whole period in the evolution when in order to progress he had to take on the responsibility for himself. So the habit has formed, it has taken root in the being.
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I have noticed something very interesting. Suppose there is a pain, some sign or other that something in the body is out of order. In the consciousness – in the consciousness – you are absolutely indifferent, which means that whether it’s life or death, disease or health, there is equality; but if the body reacts according to its old habit, “What should be done to get over it?” and all that it involves (I am not speaking of a reaction in the mind, but here, in the body), the thing takes root. Why? Because it has to stay there … (laughing) to enable you to study it! If, on the other hand, the cells have learned their lesson and say right away, “Lord, Your presence” (without words – the attitude), pfft! the thing goes.
It’s no use if the thought does it, if the psychic consciousness, EVEN THE PHYSICAL CONSCIOUSNESS, does it: it must be the cells that do it. So the one who does it in the thought says, “Here, I give myself to the Divine, I am ready for anything, I am in a state of perfect equality, and still I am ill! So what am I to believe?” That’s not the point. In order to have an instantaneous action HERE (“instantaneous,” meaning what looks like a miracle, which isn’t a miracle at all), there should instantaneously be, wherever a disorder has occurred for some reason or other, this: “Lord – Lord, this is You; Lord, we are You; Lord, You are here” – everything flies away. A sensation, an attitude – instantaneously, hup! it’s over.
I have had hundreds upon hundreds of experiences like that.
And the state – the general state of the consciousness – is exactly the same, always like this (immobile gesture, palms offered to the Heights), in a sort of conscious bliss of: “Let Your Will be done.” But that’s no use, it doesn’t act HERE – it must happen HERE (Mother touches her body).
It’s very interesting.
I could talk for hours, but it’s no use.
I know so well it’s no use that when what I said is read back to me … I said it while I was IN the experience, but when I read it again, I am in another experience, so I find it quite lacking in power of conviction. If by chance I can recapture the experience, I immediately feel, “Well, yes, that’s exactly it.” Therefore, unless one has the experience, reading is no use. We still publish the Bulletin, but anyway the truth is like that. It’s only at the time of having the experience that you can really understand what you read.
It may have the power to convey the experience (mentally that’s indisputable: it has a mental effect), but what I am talking about
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is the work here, in the cells of the body…. You give yourself a nice little mental explanation, but that’s not it! While when you have had the vibration, ah, it’s obvious.
You know, you are in considerable discomfort, out of sorts, unable to breathe, you have a feeling of nausea, of helplessness, you can’t even move, or think or do anything … in a word, quite out of sorts; and then suddenly … the Consciousness – the bodily consciousness of the Vibration of Love, which is the very essence of the creation, just one second: everything lights up, pfft! gone, it’s all gone. Then you look at yourself, amazed – it’s all gone. You were in considerable discomfort – it’s all gone.
Well, I don’t think words can convey this. It’s not even a question of living in the atmosphere – what is it? … Maybe one day it will be a power. The power to pass this on. Then it will be possible for everything to change.
Probably when it’s there, permanently established.
When it must be, it will be, no?
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