October 30, 1965
(Mother improvises on her organ for Satprem’s birthday. The organ, long unused, gives a few creaks.)
There.
I hear at the same time. I don’t hear what I play: I hear something else. So when suddenly something creaks, it no longer works! It’s probably because it hasn’t been played for a long time. I haven’t played for nine months – the last time was …
In December.
Ten months. After ten months, I play much better, because when I play often I remember what I have played before, so that’s no longer it. It’s not at all a question of practicing: it’s a question of the hands not being afraid. That’s all. As soon as the hands
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become conscious, it no longer works.
And then, what I hear has a purity that’s not there. It’s very interesting. And curiously, when I told you I would play, I thought I wouldn’t be able to, and the next day there came, oh, a cascade of music, for a long, long time…. I said to myself, “Very well, since it comes, I will see.”
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Soon afterwards
Something amusing has happened. You know that there is a new comet?…[[The comet "Ikeda-Seki." ]] This morning around four, I saw the comet, and suddenly I found myself in a state above the earth, and I saw a being who seemed to be associated with this comet. He had red hair (but not an aggressive red), a white body, but not pure white: a golden white, as if he were naked, but he didn’t give an impression of being naked, or of wearing any clothes either (I have noticed this several times already), sexless – neither man nor woman. And it was a young being, charming, full of a sort of joy, like the joy that came a little in the music just now, and he was spreading in the earth atmosphere a sort of substance that was heavier than Matter – not heavier, but denser – and jelly-like. It was as though he had taken advantage of the comet passing near the earth to spread that substance. And at the same time, I was told it was “to help for the transformation of the earth.” And he showed me how to make that substance circulate in the atmosphere.
It was charming: a young being, full of joy, as if dancing, and spreading that substance everywhere.
It lasted a long time. For several hours I remained in it.
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