October 10, 1965
And your nights?
(Satprem looks deeply disgusted)
Oh, there’s a whole work going on at night. Oh! … The whole petty subconscious working of habits, with all the gradations of the importance it assumes in the general consciousness, and, very interestingly, according to the proportion of the importance, it gives the scale. There was the whole scale, from the little manias people have, which of course are very superficial and mere habits, to the known maniacs or half-mad – the whole scale, along with the whole working. And then, the perception that it’s just a question of dosage: we all belong to the same substance! It was seen so concretely that it was quite interesting. And in conclusion, one saw how to put that under the direct Influence of the supreme Force and Consciousness so as to break the inescapable chain of habits. It was very interesting.
Those are all the things that are considered “unimportant,” and it’s all that, the whole mass of all that, which prevents the physical transformation.
And because they are very small things (that is, APPARENTLY very small things, without any importance from the viewpoint of thought, for instance, and considered negligible), they are the worst obstacles.
Naturally, if the consciousness is warped, it must first be set right, but I am talking about enlightened consciousnesses that live in the Truth, that have aspiration and that wonder why this intensity of aspiration produces such poor results – now I know. The poor result is because they don’t attach enough importance to those very small things that belong to the subconscious mechanism and because of which in thought you are free, in sentiment you are free, even in impulse you are free, and physically you are a slave.
One must undo all that, undo it, undo it.
And when the cells are goodwilled … By “goodwilled,” I mean that as soon as their attention is turned to the supreme Force (or supreme Presence or supreme Existence or supreme Reality – whatever, words are nothing but words), as soon as their attention is turned to That, a burst of joy: “That’s it! That’s it!” In the cells that are truly not only goodwilled but thirsting for the Truth: a
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burst of joy. And then … the old habits start up again. And the cells say (it recurs periodically, that is, very often, thousands of times a day), “But we only have to will!” or “We only have to aspire” or “We only have to think of That” (it’s not “think” as we understand it), “We only have to turn our attention” – “Oh, but it’s true!” Like that. “Oh, such joy!” And then, brrf! all the old habits come back again. It’s fantastic … fantastic.
The fear of the unknown is gone (doubt went away a very long time ago), the fear of the unknown, of the new, the unexpected, is gone; there only remains the mechanism of habit. But it holds on, it clings, oh! …
It will go.
And now and then (now and then: quite rarely), a spark, so to say, of the true Consciousness making an attempt, descending, but it still causes … (gesture of upheaval and turmoil). It isn’t yet received and manifested in the supreme Peace, so it goes away.
If previously (before the work on the cells), if the body was able to remain calm when the Force descended, without being overwhelmed, it was because of the tremendous amount of tamas that was inside it! That’s right! A tamas that didn’t respond, so it was calm. But now, it responds.
And you realize that if all this Power, this tremendous Force manifested – the force that is conscious, which is there, conscious – if it manifested, oh, (Mother laughs) you feel as if everything were about to start dancing and jumping!
We must be patient, that’s what I keep saying to myself a hundred and fifty, a thousand times a day: we must be patient.
(Laughing) As for you, you’re not happy.
No!
I can see that! (Mother laughs) You’re not happy at all. What to do?…
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