December 8, 1962
You said something mysterious the other day [December 41 concerning Sri Aurobindo’s departure. You were speaking of the sense of impermanence you had, of total uncertainty, and you said, “It’s no longer a destruction, but it’s not yet an ascending transformation….”
It was a real physical destruction; so I am saying it’s not that any more, but it’s not yet the realization.
(silence)
(Mother laughs) I didn’t tell you the other side.
What’s the other side?
That’s for later.
What do you mean, the other side?
No, what he seems to be giving me these days, since December 5, is a very clear vision and experience of why he had to leave. But that … it’s not yet time to speak of it.
It wasn’t for personal reasons but for reasons of work. I mean he considered (I knew it from the start; he had told me), he considered it better to leave his body, that it was the best way to do the work now. It was necessary.
But the time hasn’t come to speak of all this, to give all the reasons, and it probably won’t come for quite a while.
These past few days, he seems to want to make me see and experience all the terrestrial conditions that led him to that decision (that’s the best way to put it).
But it just can’t be told.
(silence)
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When he left his body I said, “The world isn’t ready.” I was speaking generally, but now he’s showing me each and every point, every single point. I hope (there’s still tomorrow [[December 9 Darshan, anniversary of Sri Aurobindo's interment. ]]), I hope he’ll show me if something has been accomplished along the way. That, I don’t know.
(silence)
He’s not talking to me, he’s not saying anything or explaining anything to me: he’s simply putting me through a series of experiences. Voilà.
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