August 28, 1962
(It is extremely unfortunate that the beginning of this conversation, which would have thrown a clear light on what follows, was not kept. As far as Satprem remembers, the subject was his sleep. It seems Mother was saying that while his “strolls by the sea” took place during sleep and by passing into another state, for her – and this is where the notes begin – there was no more “sleep” and no more “passing” into another state, from the ordinary physical to the subtle physical, because everything seemed to have become or was becoming one and the same continuous Matter. The true Matter, probably.)
That’s one thing that’s happening. The two [the ordinary physical and the subtle physical] seem to be fusing more and more.
I have already explained this to you on several occasions: instead of SHIFTING from one to the other, it’s as if one were permeated by the other, like this (Mother slips the fingers of her right hand in between the fingers of her left hand), and you can almost feel both simultaneously. It’s one of the results of what’s going on these days. A very slight concentration, for example, is all it takes to feel both at the same time, which leads me to a near conviction that true change in the physical results from a kind of PENETRATION. The most material physical substance no longer has that unreceptive sort of density, a density that resists penetration: it is becoming porous, and thus can be penetrated. Several times, in fact, I’ve had the experience of one vibration quite naturally changing the quality of the other – the subtle physical vibration was bringing about a sort of … almost a transformation, or in any case a noticeable change in the purely physical vibration.
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That seems to be the process, or at least one of the most important processes.
And it’s growing more and more prominent. I spend almost every night in that realm; and even during the day, as soon as the body is motionless, there’s this perception of the two vibrations, and of the physical vibration almost becoming porous.
It seems to be the process, or certainly one important process, for the physical transformation.
(silence)
You see, the subtle physical seems to DOSE OUT its power and light and capacity of consciousness according to the amount of receptivity in the purely physical vibration. That’s why the effects stretch over a long period of time. It’s being done very, very gradually. But it’s an almost continuous work. Only when there’s some bodily activity and the consciousness must turn outwards (not in the same way as before, that’s impossible, but still in a way that seems like a continuation of the old consciousness), then, if the work continues at all, it’s invisible – and maybe it doesn’t continue…. I don’t know. But as soon as all activity stops and the body is concentrated or immobile – perhaps no more than simply passive – that penetration is perceptible: it’s visible. Visible. And it’s not like something more subtle penetrating something less subtle without altering it; the essential point is that this penetration actually changes the composition. It’s not merely a degree of subtlety, it’s a change in the internal composition. Ultimately, this action probably has an effect on the atomic level. And that’s how the practical possibility of transformation can be accounted for.
It’s an experience I have all the time.
At times it’s a bit new or a bit extreme, and you have to be careful the body doesn’t panic. But then you see how everything is dosed out and maintained in a way that … (Mother laughs) nothing falls to pieces!
On the surface, it’s a very humble work, nothing sensational. There are no illuminations filling you with joy and…. All that is fine for people seeking spiritual joys – it belongs to the past.
It’s a very modest work, very modest, even from a purely intellectual vantage point. It’s different from the sensation of knowing things because you ARE them, which gives you joy, a sense of progress. It’s not even like that! It is VERY humble, a very humble and
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unglamorous work, but which keeps on very regularly, with extreme regularity and STUBBORNNESS.
It will surely stretch over a long period of time.
And at each step, it’s as though you had to take great care that nothing gets thrown off balance. The new combinations of vibrations, especially, are difficult for the body – it must be very, very quiet, well under control, very peaceful, or else it panics. Because it’s used to vibrations whose effects follow a regular pattern, so if the pattern changes there’s a kind of frightened jolt. That must be avoided, the body has to be very gently kept under control.
What the mind thinks, what it expects to see, looks so childish in comparison, like … yes, like theatrics, really. It’s the difference between some grand extravaganza and the very modest life of each minute. Exactly that.
All the powers, all the siddhis, all the realizations, all these things are … the grand extravaganza – the great spiritual spectacle. But this isn’t like that. It’s very modest, very modest, very unobtrusive, very humble, nothing showy about it. It takes years and years and years of silent, quiet and extremely careful work before there can be any visible and tangible results, before anything can be noticed, even for the [Mother's] individual consciousness.
As for those who want to go quickly, if they try going quickly in this realm, they’ll be thrown off balance.
You can’t go quickly.
Once, when I saw how it was, I complained a bit to the Lord: “Lord, why did you make the body this way for doing this kind of work? Just look at it!” He answered me (laughing), “It’s the best that could be done.” So I said “Thank you!” and kept quiet.
And that’s probably true! It has some good points: what they call stubborn in English – you know (Mother plants down her two fists and holds them motionless). And stubbornness is an essentially British quality, so there’s no other word for it. The body is stubborn; and that’s what is needed.
All right.
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