October 1, 1958
(Mother speaks of an experience She had during,
the Wednesday class at the playground:)
It was so strong, so strong that it was really inexpressible. The negative expel fence of no longer being an individual, or in other words, the dissolution of the ego, took place a long time ago and still takes place quite often: the ego completely vanishes. But this was a positive experience of being … not just the universe in its totality, but something else – ineffable, yet concrete, absolutely concrete! Unutterable’ – and yet utterly concrete: the divine Person beyond the Impersonal.
The experience lasted for only a few minutes. And I knew, then, that all our words … all our words are empty. But circumstances were such that I had to speak …
1. Later, Mother added: ‘Becausc I do not say everything; when I am in that state, there is a lethargy of expression!
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